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Word Count: 121000

Character Identities: Demisexual, Gay

Summary: A child’s memory. A journey’s end. Lance doesn’t remember the time before Ulfr found him. It’s a dark pit in his mind that he avoids at all costs. And yet, despite his best efforts, pieces start to fall, and echoes from the past begin to ring. However, he has little time to comprehend their meaning, since the Captain of the Imperial Army herself has come to collect him and bring him to the capital city of the Nifdem Empire. Whisked away to the gilded streets and glittering court of the Hill of Tarran, and then to the snowy reaches of Swenen, Lance and Gust will learn the answers to questions they’ve had from the start. And be forced to acknowledge their roles in the survival of the empire and the ripple effects of their actions. But such knowledge can come at a steep price. As allies and enemies begin to step from the shadows, Lance will learn the truth of his past and the price of his redemption, and all the pain that comes with them. While Gust will have to decide what he’s willing to sacrifice to safeguard the one he loves.

Avenging Lance - M.D. Grimm - A Warrior's Redemption
Avenging LancePairings: M-M
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Word Count: 72579

Character Identities: Bisexual, Gay, Non Binary

Summary: A Dark Steamy Superhero Yaoi Romance ❤️former super-powered hotties returning to action! ❤️ second chance at love for a Hero and a Villain  ❤️ amazing secondary cast with their own love stories COMPLETE SERIES NOW AVAILABLE ON AMAZON & KU Several years past 50, Matt thought that his days as a Villain in the staged Chosen fights were long over. But then his powers returned in the wake of a devastating attack that took the powers of all the active Chosen, perpetrated by a young Hero. With no other choice, Matt goes to the one man who might understand what is happening to him - Colton. The man who was Matt's main rival back in the days of his fighting career. A man Matt hasn't seen since the day he burned out and walked away from the fights. That would be complicated enough. But back then, they were also secret lovers. Matt walked away from that as well without a goodbye. Now after nearly twenty five years, these two men are coming face to face for the first time. Can they handle their personal issues while trying to save the world from a Hero gone bad? Trigger warnings for dub/noncon, super tragic backstories, explicit on page sex, angsty gay dudes, and cliffhangers.

Back Issues - Dani Hermt & Curtis Star - Burn Outs
Back IssuesPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 70000

Character Identities: Ace, Demisexual, Gay

Summary: As far as rock star Gareth Kendrick, the last true bard in Faerie, is concerned, the only good Unseelie is . . . well . . . there’s no such thing. Two centuries ago, an Unseelie lord abducted Gareth’s human lover, Niall, and Gareth has neither forgotten nor forgiven. Niall O’Tierney, half-human son of the Unseelie King, had never lost a wager until the day he swore to rid the Seelie court of its bard. That bet cost him everything: his freedom, his family—and his heart. When he’s suddenly face-to-face with Gareth at the ceremony to join the Seelie and Unseelie realms, Niall does the only thing inhumanly possible: he fakes amnesia. Not his finest hour, perhaps, but he never revealed his Unseelie heritage, and to tell the truth now would be to risk Gareth’s revulsion—far harder to bear than two hundred years of imprisonment. Then a new threat to Gareth’s life arises, and he and Niall stage a mad escape into the Outer World, only to discover the fate of all fae resting on their shoulders. But before they can save the realm, they have to tackle something really tough: mending their own broken relationship.

Bad Boy's Bard - E. J. Russell
Bad Boy's BardPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 32723

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: Bryce Harkless is unapologetic. He’s raw, rude and arrogant but sweet, gentle and loving. He’s a sexy college basketball player from Savannah, GA that everyone loves and wants to sleep with. His life, however, is full of conflicts. He is haunted by the past, yet afraid for the future. He loves his boyfriend, but hates him, too. To avoid facing his troubling past, he lies, cheats and engages in risky behavior. There are layers of pain inside of Bryce that are destined to destroy his life if he doesn’t learn how to face them and move on. He was raised in the church, but he doesn’t understand God’s reasoning for treating him the way he does. He doesn’t want to be gay, but women do nothing for him. In turn, he blames God for everything. He hates God. The month of March is the hardest time of the year for Bryce. During this time, he is forced to deal with an event from his past that shattered his young life into pieces. As if dealing with that situation isn’t hard enough, an incident involving another man raises questions about his sexuality in the mind of his beloved auntie. However, everything comes to a screeching halt in just one phone call. There, he gets the news that undermines everything else. Come along for the ride in this novella, as the next few days are destined to turn Bryce’s already rollercoaster life, even more upside down!

Bad Religion - Jaxon Grant - BuTasty
Bad ReligionPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 32518

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: It’s been three gut-wrenching days since Bryce received that life-changing phone call in Savannah. He has avoided dealing with the situation, but now that his spring break is ending, he has no choice but to attack and face his truth as he heads back to his college apartment in Atlanta. To Bryce, all of life’s issues are hitting him at once. If dealing with the reality of that phone call wasn’t bad enough, his closest family members are directly and indirectly questioning him about his sexuality. His conscience is eating him alive as a result of the decisions that he’s making. To add insult to injury, his pastor accuses him of something unimaginable. All of this brings Bryce’s internal conflict with God to an all-time high, leaving him at the point of no return—emotionally, mentally and physically.

Bad Religion2 A Sinner's Denial - Jaxon Grant - BuTasty
Bad Religion 2: A Sinner's DenialPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 46584

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: It’s summer 2016 and two years have passed since we’ve last seen Bryce Harkless. He has moved past that devastating but eventual false diagnosis, but has much changed in his life? Is he still doing the harmful things that caused that initial life-changing scare? As Bryce prepares to head into his senior year of college, he plans a relaxing vacation to travel up the east coast with his best friend. Something unexpected happens while on the trip, so they alter their plans and head to the Midwest. While on that journey, Bryce encounters another life-shattering event that will shake him to his core. This unforeseen circumstance will force Bryce into a decision that’ll allow him the opportunity to seek vengeance for a previous wrong done to his family. Will Bryce do what his church upbringing taught him and leave it in God’s hands, or will he go out and do his own thing? Where will his relationship with God stand when the dust clears? Jaxon Grant, author of the "Incidental Contact" and "Life of a College Bandsman" series, pens a masterfully woven tale of adventure, crime and consequence, lust, secrets, exploration, revenge and mind-blowing sex. In the final book of this trilogy, join Bryce on this two-week voyage as he learns the hard truth about himself—the truth that maybe he isn’t even ready to discover.

Bad Religion3 About Last Night - Jaxon Grant - BuTasty
Bad Religion 3: About Last NightPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 97,046

Character Identities: Bisexual, Gay

Summary: Love, served behind the stick. Kyle McKee lives a charmed life. He co-owns Under, an uptown speakeasy, where he is chief mixologist. Friends poke fun at Kyle’s tiny one-bed apartment in Chelsea, but they’re the best support system a man could ask for. Unfortunately, Kyle’s lackluster love life has led him to take a break from dating. Harlem resident Luka Clarke is a lieutenant with Engine 47, the Pride of Morningside, where he carries on his father’s legacy with the FDNY. Luka, who is mixed race and bisexual, has his eye on Kyle, whom he met at a local burger joint and he just needs to make time to visit Kyle’s bar. Before work one evening, Kyle is trapped inside the luncheonette when a fire breaks out. Luka’s firehouse answers the call and he connects with Kyle again under the most unexpected of circumstances. When Kyle gratefully invites Luka and the firehouse squad to Under, the flirting between the two men leads to a date. Kyle and Luka quickly grow close, but Luka’s mother and sister distrust Kyle for being both white and gay. Luka believes his family will come around and accept Kyle in the end, but Kyle is not optimistic and hides his disquiet as attraction blossoms into love. Kyle and Luka’s near-idyllic bubble is shattered one evening after a hate crime leaves them scarred, inside and out. Shaken, they put on a strong front but struggle inwardly against fear and personal demons. As the emotions seething beneath the surface finally come to a head, both men must decide if they have the strength to find love enough to conquer hate.

Behind the Stick - K. Evan Coles and Brigham Vaughn
Behind the StickPairings: M-M, 4+ or Other
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Word Count: 93000

Character Identities: Genderfluid, Lesbian, Non Binary, Pansexual

Summary: When a change in collective conscious sends the Outsiders, a group of aliens, to the shadows below the city, humans reason that the demonization of their peers is simply more “humane.” There’s no question, nor doubt. Just acceptance. Lydia had embraced that sense of “truth” for as long as she can remember. The daughter of a powerful governor, she has been able to live her life with more comforts than most. Comforts can be suffocating, though, and when the opportunity to teach Outsider children in their private, “humane” community becomes available, she takes it. What she finds beneath the city is far from the truth she had grown to know. There she meets Alessia, an Outsider with the knowledge and will to shake the foundation of all those who walk above ground. The two find a new and unexpected connection despite a complete disconnect from the technological world. Or perhaps in spite of it. Still, it takes a lot more than an immutable connection to change the world. Lydia, Alessia, and a small group of Outsiders must navigate a system of corruption, falsehoods, and twists none of them ever saw coming, all while holding on to the hope to come out alive in the end. But it’s a risk worth taking, and a future worth fighting for.

Beneath the Surface - Rebecca Langham
Beneath the SurfacePairings: F-F, M-F, M-M
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Word Count: 80000

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: Everyone is chasing their own dreams, but Johnny isn't sure he even has one. Apex Racing is expanding and absorbing Pilot and his lovers. Everyone is happy with it…except for Johnny. He's constantly feeling left out and more alone than ever before. It's time to seek out his own win, and find his holeshot even if it’s off the track and away from Pilot. Gavin is determined to put together the hottest Supercross team, and he wants that to include Bryce Nickels. But that seems almost impossible since Bryce signed with Apex. Perhaps he needs a new angle, like the sexy business partner of the bodyguard, Johnny Killebrew. Maybe he'll sign on more than he bargained for. Praise for Holeshot Christmas: "The writing was spot on once again and the storyline flowed really well. A Christmas feel good sexy story for the win!" ~Morningstar with Diverse Reader Blog. "Holeshot Christmas is a delightful little visit with Davey and Tyler. It's sweet, cute, and a lot of fun." ~Amy's mmromance reviews Bike Business is the fourth title in the Holeshot series. For your reading enjoyment, the preferred reading order is as follows: The Holeshot Holeshot 2 Holeshot Christmas Bike Business: A Holeshot Novel Tricky Tracks

Bike Business - Lynn Michaels
Bike BusinessPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 75000

Character Identities: Bisexual

Summary: The rings have been selected. The champagne placed on ice. The cake decorated. And the pre-wedding sex is off the charts... Lucas Vallois and Andrei Hadeon are finally ready to walk down the aisle. There’s just one small problem. A ghost from Lucas’s past shows up days before the wedding, desperate for help. Against his better judgement, Lucas and his best friend, Ashton Frost, plan a fast trip back to the one place they swore they’d never go: their hometown in Oklahoma. But the danger is worse than they expected. Now, they’re in a race to track down a killer, keep a young girl safe, and get Lucas back in time to say, “I do.”

Blaze - Jocelyn Drake & Rinda Elliott - Unbreakable Stories
BlazePairings: M-M
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Word Count: 48870

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: A wolf and a cougar—with all that keeps them apart, can they have a future together? In Haven, Montana, the shifters and their human allies are safe—for now. But that safety hinges on the town’s location remaining a secret, and it’s about to be compromised. Cougar shifter Travis Kuger spent the past several years alternating between craving revenge and wishing he could forget his painful past. Ever since the shifter-hating Knights blinded him and killed his family, Haven—and Sheriff Jack Ulger—have been Travis’s refuge. Travis and Jack know their friendship could be much more, but Jack is part of Haven’s ruling wolf shifter pack. If he takes a non-wolf mate, he could be banished forever. But when a knight infiltrates Haven, love becomes the least of their problems. Second Edition with updated and revised text.

Blind Devotion - M.D. Grimm - Shifter Chronicles
Blind DevotionPairings: M-M
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Word Count: Information not available

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: Death, be not proud… The conclusion of the war between Elizabeth Bathory and the Guardians of Gaia draws closer, but the theriomorphs and their allies are caught between vampires loyal to Elizabeth Bathory’s daughter, Anna, and humans controlled by Elizabeth and her sire, Thrace. With the forces of evil now pressing on them from two sides, the theriomorphs need help, and they need it fast! And soonest our best men with thee do go... It has been five hundred years since Antonio de Barajas, one of the oldest surviving theriomorphs, lost his mate at the hands of his worst enemy. But Gaia never revealed the whole truth about Raphael’s fate, and Antonio is shocked when Raphael arrives to train Evan St. John and Adam Carson as true Dark Guardians. Yet the man who returns after so long is not the same man Antonio once loved. The hard and lonely life as Gaia’s hunter has changed Raphael almost as much as his lost memories of Antonio and the love they once shared. Thou art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men... Antonio must work with the stranger who wears his lover’s face, and while Raphael is welcomed by most of the team, one member sees his return as a threat to his own place in Antonio’s life. But Thrace has allied himself with terrorists who possess a weapon of mass destruction. Now the theriomorphs and Dark Guardians must work together in a race against time to discover Thrace’s plan. Even as Antonio and Raphael are irresistibly drawn to one another, Antonio risks losing far more than his heart this time. If he and his team fail in their mission, millions will die, for Thrace will stop at nothing to destroy Gaia once and for all.

Be Not Proud - Ari McKay - Blood Bathory
Blood Bathory: Be Not ProudPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 100500

Character Identities: Ace, Genderqueer, Non Binary, Pansexual, Transgender

Summary: For Ress, survival is a complicated nightmare. Caught between two masters on different sides of the law, his life is falling apart one bad decision at a time. All he wants is to be is a good person, a loyal family man, and a successful metalsmith—a dream he can never obtain while he works for the Shar-denn, the violent gang that plagues the republic of Kattal. To make matters worse, he works as an informant for the High Council. He scrapes through both jobs waiting for his last breath. As the Shar-denn motto says: the only way out is dead. No stranger to living complicated decisions, Adren is caught between worlds of cir own. As the child of a Shar-denn faction boss, cir life is a conflicted tangle of expectation and duty. When cir family is arrested, Adren manages to escape, but nowhere is safe. Desperate and on the run, Adren is determined to punish Ress for turning in cir family. No one who betrays the gang can live. Ress must pay the price, even if Adren has to go against everything ce is.

Blood Borne – Archer Kay Leah – The Republic
Blood BornePairings: M-NB, Includes NB
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Word Count: 64500

Character Identities: Bisexual, Gay

Summary: The bull shifter, Ryan, and his human mate, Caleb, have made a good life together. Alongside Caleb’s mother, Mandy, they run an animal rehabilitation center on their ranch. Ryan has become the honorary uncle to two young bull shifters, and Caleb is proud at how well his mate has acclimated to the human world. For Ryan, he’s found the family and the peace he’s long craved, and he’s determined to keep it by whatever means necessary. But their quiet lives are disrupted when Caleb’s aunt—Chief Hera of the US Agency—visits. And she brings a dire warning: the Knights of the Dawn want Ryan’s blood. After losing someone precious to them during a skirmish with the knights, Caleb spirals into grief, and Ryan must work through his guilt and sorrow to care for his mate. A task made easier when Hera stays with her nephews, sharing their heartache. After they retreat to Haven, Montana, they begin the long process of healing. Unfortunately, Haven is in a state of unrest, and they are sucked into shifter politics that threaten the safety of the community as a whole. Meanwhile, the knights still need Ryan’s blood, and he can’t hide forever. Note to readers: Caleb and Ryan first show up in Love is a Whirlwind. While many of these books can be read alone, for full enjoyment please read previous books in the series, as this one does have many cameos and character resolutions.

Blood of the Whirlwind - M.D. Grimm - Shifter Chronicles
Blood of the WhirlwindPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 102700

Character Identities: Bisexual, Lesbian, Questioning, Pansexual, Polyamorous, Straight

Summary: I never wanted to be queen. But I won’t let just anyone take my place. Or my men. To defeat the Unseelie, our allies need their long-lost magic, and that means someone has to become queen. I had to leave both of my lovers behind in the human realm, and I can’t return to them until I find someone worthy of the throne. Of course, nothing is ever easy, and I embark on a desperate plan to save the Fae by helping my fellow heir. Along the way, I’m drawn to another potential lover, even though we both know he should be off-limits. To become queen, Una needs one final consort, and she chooses one of my handsome, powerful guards. Suddenly, I’m not willing to surrender him. But who am I to stand in the way of our future queen? Note: 18+ only. In the six-book Our Fae Queen series, Glori will find limitless love with multiple Fae. Steamy group scenes in later books involve MFM, FMM, and MMFMMM. All intimate encounters are consensual. Mayhem. Magic. Romance. Expect unusual shapeshifters, new love and friendships, surprising betrayal, and two uncertain heirs finding their way in Bound to the Queen, the exciting third book of this new adult Why Choose romance and a turning point for Glori.

Bound to the Queen - Traci Lovelot - Our Fae Queen
Bound to the QueenPairings: M-M-F, 4+ or Other
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Word Count: 56000

Character Identities: Bisexual

Summary: In a near-future United States where slavery is alive and controlled by an organization known as the Circle, Avery Tulano is up for sale yet again—and it might very well be his last time on the auction block. As a young man, he signed his life away in a contract willingly, driven by the desire to escape his life. Now, eight years later, he's broken, battered, and sick from a life of unspeakable horrors. When the bidding starts as low as $200, it may as well be a death warrant. Enter Conrad Fisher, a corrupt ex-cop discharged from the force who runs a failing private detective business. His wife died chasing one final high and he's been in a state of isolated depression ever since. He's only at the auction to help his journalist daughter Christina get a scoop on the Circle. When he sees Avery up for bid at such a low price, however, it's an offer he can't refuse and before he knows it, he's walking out of the auction house as Avery's new owner. It's a mistake. Slavery is wrong. Conrad can't afford to keep him anyway, no matter what strange connection they find in each other. But even if a real relationship was possible, a life of drugs, alcohol, and bad decisions is rapidly catching up with both of them—if the Circle doesn't kill them first.

Break the Chains - Reis Asher
Break The ChainsPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 81000

Character Identities: Genderfluid, Lesbian, Pansexual, Straight

Summary: Alessia is an Outsider—a member of the not-quite-human community that has recently been released from their underground prison. Shortly after their liberation, Alessia is given an ultimatum: obey all the United Earth Alliance’s demands, or her mother will forever remain a hostage—a mother she’d believed dead for fifteen years. Reluctantly, she agrees, though she has no idea what those demands may be or how she will balance her obligations to the UEA with her responsibilities to her people and her family. As the UEA tightens its grip on humans and Outsiders alike, it becomes clear that meaningful social change will not be possible without a revolution. Alessia and her peers embark on a mission to discover just how far the government is willing to go to maintain their monopoly on power. What Alessia and her comrades discover, however, goes much deeper than they’d ever anticipated. Who are the Outsiders, really? What secrets of their destiny lay hidden within a top-secret space station? And why are the Outsiders linked to an emerging disease the UEA seems desperate to keep secret?  As they delve deeper, it isn’t only Alessia’s identity that will be called into question, but the fate of the entire planet.

Breaking the Surface - Rebecca Langham
Breaking the SurfacePairings: F-F, M-F, M-M
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Word Count: 128000

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: Cary “Sol” Solomon isn’t just in a slump—he’s a mess. His stats have plummeted. Fans hate him. After he caps off two awful seasons with a catastrophic playoff flop, his team is done with him. Worse, thanks to his downward spiral, the addiction that’s nearly cost him his career before is rearing its ugly head. As luck would have it, though, the Seattle Sasquatches are desperate for goalies. When they snatch up Sol off waivers, maybe he has a chance to turn things around… if he can stay sober and get back on his game. Except Sol isn’t the Sasquatches’ only new netminder. Once destined for the hall of fame, Josh O’Brien is a trainwreck thanks to an injury and a messy divorce. His illustrious career is a disaster, and now he’s an unrestricted free agent who nobody wants to sign. He’s on the brink of losing the only thing he has left: hockey. Then Seattle comes knocking with an offer he can’t refuse: a huge pay cut, but a shot at redemption. One that means being teammates with the ex whose name still raises Josh’s hackles all these years later. Now Josh and Sol are stuck on the same team, proximity dredging up emotions they’ve both kept buried for years. Which wouldn’t be so bad if the only things coming to the surface were anger and resentment. As they remember all the sparks and feelings that once drew them together, neither can decide which is worse—being together or apart. And that’s before Sol’s old demons start showing up. But they’re not just coming for him this time. Brick Walls is a 128,000 word contemporary gay hockey romance. Content Warning: On-page struggle with cocaine addiction. If you would like clarification or other additional information about this content warning, please feel free to email the author at gallagherwitt at gmail dot com.

Brick Walls - L.A. Witt
Brick WallsPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 42000

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: What do you get when you mix a pro snowboarder with a music equipment salesman and his kid? --I don't know, but it's bound to be a good time. Griffin had no idea how hot Zane McDonnell was until he witnesses the famous sports stringer interview him. The snowboarder is charismatic and kind of adorable. When Griffin is encouraged to pursue the vibrant man, he decides to go for it—he needs adult fun in his life. Zane figured Griffin would be fast and fun -- exactly how he likes his lovers and his life. He was wrong. Griffin slips past his defenses faster than the downhill competition at the X-games. His friends might call him Big Mac, but inside he’s tiny and afraid. Despite that, he's tempted to stick around and see what happens, but the reality is nothing is permanent. Griffin's not about to let Zane take the easy way out. He can easily see Zane is making a rookie mistake. Will the snowboarder let himself fall for the solid father or will he blow his turn? Tags: sports romance, snowboarding & outdoor fun, music, single father, travel for work, merging lives.

Briefcases and Boards - Lynn Michaels - Sports Stringer
Briefcases and BoardsPairings: M-M
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Word Count: 38301

Character Identities: Gay

Summary: A widowed alpha is finally ready to love again, but his rejected mate left to protect his heart. Beta Kristoff Dumanovsky has loved his alpha, Jeremiah Tolliver, for years. However, Jeremiah wasn’t ready to move on from the love he still had for his dead wife. When tragedy struck, Kristoff blamed his focus and left not only the Iroquois Pack but Jeremiah as well. When Stefan Mukhankin, an enemy from Kristoff’s past threatens his safety, Jeremiah uses this as a reason to try and bring Kristoff home. It won’t be an easy battle. Kristoff’s survived before and feels he’ll survive again. He was trained to elude the enemy even if it’s the man he loves, so Jeremiah is in for the fight of their lives. Can an alpha help his mate believe their bond is true, or will his mate find yet another place to run?

Broken Promises - Deja Black
Broken PromisesPairings: M-M
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