Books Tagged With what - sex - first time / exploration

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Summary: For Andrew Tuttleman, sex is a means to an end. With a mother too sick to pay the bills on her own and college bills to pay, Drew has spent years resorting to sex with strangers to keep a roof over his mother's head and keep himself at school, far away from the hell where he grew up. This summer, his usual tricks are still paying the bills. But there's a new one, Grant, who never got the memo that a trick is a no-strings deal. Convinced that Drew is the answer to a hopeless prayer, Grant seems ready to pursue Drew to the ends of the earth. Drew, on the other hand, isn't so convinced. Grant comes with trouble in the form of a wife and three kids, not to mention a single and unwavering requirement: that Drew give up his livelihood. Grant's kiss makes Drew ache for more, a romance that he never dreamed possible. He finds himself unexpectedly willing to try. Can Drew weather Grant's angry father, wife, and a daughter determined to kick him in the shins so hard that he'll leave Grant's life forever? It all relies on Grant's faith in an impossible prayer.

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Summary: If a megalomaniacal earth mage kidnaps your little sister, do you: A) Kill him B) Kill him C) Kill him D) Magically indenture yourself to him to ensure her safe return Welsh water horse Nevan Quirke would have happily opted for A, B, or C, but had no idea where his sister was hidden—so, option D it is. He’s not a fool, though. He made sure to limit his obligation to a single task. Unfortunately, he neglected to nail down a few tiny details before the geas brand was seared into his skin, and now: A) He can’t shift B) He can’t swim C) He can’t drink D) If he fails, he’ll be bound to the mage for eternity Oh, and that task? Assist in an assassination. If only he weren’t so thirsty. And if only his partner for the heinous job weren’t the most appealing man Nevan has seen in his entire two-thousand-year life. Assassin by Accident takes place in E.J. Russell’s Mythmatched universe and is part of the multi-author Carnival of Mysteries series. Each book stands alone, but each one includes at least one visit to Errante Ame’s Carnival of Mysteries, a magical, multiverse traveling show full of unusual acts, games, and rides. The Carnival changes to suit the world it’s on, so each visit is unique and special. This book features grumpy/sunshiny, hurt/comfort, mistaken identity, opposites attract, unexpected derring-do, and of course an HEA—no matter how little the men in question think they deserve it.

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Summary: Death threats drove him from his country. Can he ever find asylum from his past?   Hernán had family, college, and a future in El Salvador. Until a vicious gang targeted him as gay. Threatened with murder, he braved a nightmare journey toward a new life. Now, haunted by his trek, he hides from immigration trouble as well as his enemies. He prays to pass in Provincetown unnoticed. But a handsome man with a secret like Hernán’s is vulnerable to predators. Colin is in town for a wedding when he falls into the harbor. The man who rescues him is dark-haired, dark eyed and gorgeous. He’s also a target because of his immigration status. Colin owes a debt, and wants to repay it by helping his savior escape the monsters who would exploit him. Hernán yearns to trust the kind man who offers him sanctuary. Will his demons destroy his chance at a future with Colin?   Asylum is a standalone gay romance novel but contains spoilers for the prior novel, September. Trigger warnings for brief references to off-page sexual abuse of a child and adult.

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Summary: He never wanted a sexy vampire for a fated mate, but that doesn’t stop him from falling in love. There’s only two things Tim knows for sure. One is farming. The other is how to be a bigot. But he only wants to hang on to one of those things. Just when he thinks he has let go of the past and opened his heart and mind to other people, along comes a vampire who will rock his new lease on life on its foundation. What do you do when your life changes in the blink of an eye? That’s the question Keaton had been asking himself, and he still hadn’t found an answer to it. He has yet to figure out if the change is good or bad. It seems good when the Alpha of Saint Lakes gets him a job working with animals on a farm. Even better when he meets his fated mate. He finds out his fated mate doesn’t like him because he’s a vampire. And Keaton has an even bigger problem. One in the form of a senator’s henchman. He has two choices: Become a kidnapped experiment or betray the Saint Lakes clan.

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Summary: Banyak & Fecks is a prequel to The Clearwater Mystery series of romantic gay novels. However, it is not a mystery. It is a story of how a Ukrainian refugee and the son of an Irish immigrant come to meet in the East End of London in 1884. It is a story about friendship. 1881. Andrej’s family are dead or missing, and his village in Ukraine decimated. Aged thirteen, he walks west to find a boat to take him to London. Three years later, homeless, starving and having resorted to prostitution, he finds safe passage and arrives in London alone but determined. 1884. Silas’ mother has died, leaving him to fend for his twin sisters in the hellish world of the Westerpool slums. Silas only knows the work of a thief and trickster and at sixteen, heads to London to make his money. What he finds is poverty, starvation and the Greychurch workhouse. About to give up, he encounters a giant Ukrainian, proud, handsome, and renting his body in the alleys of the East End. Silas (Banyak) and Andrej (Fecks) make an unlikely pair, but their friendship is all they need to survive life in London’s notorious East End. When disaster robs them of their home, they have no choice but to live rough and work the streets. Lodging houses, rope houses, arrest, violence and prostitution, they face it together. But when the Ripper starts slaughtering Greychurch rent boys, Banyak and Fecks have only their friendship to ensure their survival.

"A colourful and enchanting tale. Beautifully written. Marsh does an excellent job of evoking the look and feel of a different age."

Olivier Bosman author of the DS Billings Victorian Mysteries

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Summary: Barista Brewed Love  - Love is always brewing at the local coffee shop! Sip your coffee, cozy up, and get ready for some warm m/m romance that’s just as sweet as the perfect cup! In the comfy corners of a local café, love is always on the menu. Jacques, a flirtatious and endearing barista with a knack for matchmaking, has seen it all—and made countless connections in the process. But after losing his husband, he's slowly learning that even the best cups of coffee can't heal all wounds. In Barista Brewed Love, a collection of interconnected M/M romance stories, unexpected sparks fly as strangers become friends, and friendships bloom into love. From the sweet jitters of a first date to the heartwarming comfort of second chances, these touching tales weave a tapestry of love, friendship, and new beginnings. You’ll fall for the unforgettable characters who pour their hearts out—whether it's a young couple navigating their first real love, a man filled with regret tracking down a lost love from the past, or older men discovering romance after years of solitude. And Jacques? He's there every step of the way, playing matchmaker, offering advice, and finding his own path to healing. Join these lovable characters in a celebration of love, vulnerability, and hope, and find out if Jacques can open his heart to new possibilities. With laughter, tears, and a few steamy moments, Barista Brewed Love will make you believe that no matter how complicated life gets, love is always worth the fight. Sip your coffee. Let your heart race. And let love brew...

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Summary: Rory Graeble returns to college determined to reinvent himself. Too many years have been wasted with masks, but becoming a student leader is a step Rory isn’t sure he’s ready for. A new identity takes more than just a new nickname, and Rory knows he has to take the chances that his old self would never risk. When that chance is a party that ends with an anonymous hot skater’s tongue down his throat and a phone number in his pocket, Rory knows what he has to do. Danny Smits never expected to see stuffy lit geek Rory Graeble trying to be out, trying to be proud, trying to be… Rory. It’s damned sexy, and too much for the entrepreneurial skater to resist. When Rory calls him back the day after the party, Danny knows Rory has changed. But will Danny’s haunted past deter Rory? Or will Rory embrace the chance to experience everything the closet had stolen away? Danny believes in keeping things real, in a brutal honesty he knows means Rory will run screaming. But this time Rory isn’t running.

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Summary: Is fifteen years too long to wait to ask for forgiveness? To ask for a second chance? Jason left his hometown of Belkin fifteen years ago and has never returned. But he's never forgotten Shaun or their time together. If he goes back, will Shaun want to speak to him? How can Jason convince him that the man he's become isn't as afraid as the boy he was? That he can be trusted and that this time - he won't run? A stand alone novella about love, growing up, and second chances.

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Summary: Lieutenant Commander Connor Marks is starting over. His kids are grown up. His divorce is final. He’s settled into his new command and a beautiful house in Spain. Nothing left to do but move forward. And maybe explore his bisexuality after all this time. Unfortunately, his options are limited. He doesn’t speak enough Spanish to connect with the locals, and getting involved with other service members can get… complicated. When HM1 Alex Barlow stumbles across a hot guy on a hookup app, of course it’s that gorgeous new physician Alex sees all the time at the hospital. Of course he’s looking to hook up with a guy. Of course he’s exactly Alex’s type. The only problem is that Connor is an officer while Alex is enlisted. The fraternization regs are crystal clear—they can’t even be friends, never mind hook up. Never mind be more than hookups. But the Navy’s regs can’t cool the chemistry sizzling between Alex and Connor. And nothing—not even their own stubbornness or Alex’s toxic, persistent ex—can stop them from falling in love. CW: Discussion of past abuse, brief on-page violence; combat-related PTSD.

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Summary: Spencer’s thirtieth birthday is right around the corner, and he wants to say goodbye to his twenties with a bang. Literally. As a self-proclaimed sex god, Spencer has sworn off love and dedicated himself to finishing his F***-it List – a collection of wild fantasies he’s checked off one by one. Now, only one fantasy remains: rock a virgin’s world with a night of unforgettable sex. Shy, sweet Mickey seems like the perfect candidate, but he’ll need a major confidence boost before he’s ready to go all the way. Hoping for a chance to be Mickey’s first, Spencer makes him an offer he can’t refuse – he’ll transform Mickey into San Francisco’s next sex god. Mickey, who’s always felt out of step with the gay scene, jumps at the chance to reinvent himself. It isn’t long, though, before styling tips and flirting lessons give way to stolen glances and heart-to-heart conversations, and what started as a playful makeover begins to look a lot like falling in love. For Spencer, feelings were never part of the plan. But as Mickey blossoms into a self-assured man and their connection deepens, Spencer is forced to ask himself: is Mickey just another checkmark on his list, or could he be the man who finally makes Spencer believe in love? Better Than Sex is a steamy, slow burn, opposites-attract romance. Loaded with humor and heart, the story explores friendship, found family, and the messy, wonderful lengths we go to for love and acceptance.

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Summary: Qi Jiang - Heading into the last quarter of my senior year, I have all my ducks in a row. Ever since watching the world turn its back on my sibling for being queer, I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I've been accepted to my dream university to pursue a law degree to become a human rights lawyer. I have everything figured out, except my love life. My friends keep pushing me to date people but there's never a spark. At the beginning of my senior year I figured out I'm on the ace spectrum, most likely a cupioromantic aceflux. But I have more important things to worry about right now. I've stopped trying to date. Told my friends to quit setting me up, so how did I go from raising awareness for queer youth at a charity event to being auctioned off to a guy who looks like a locker-room pinup? Tristan Donovan - Money, power, prestige. All-American high school quarterback right here. Just got accepted to one of the most elite universities in the country. Nepotism-sure as hell looks like it, but no, actually not so much. There's the mask I wear at school, and then the few who know who I really am underneath. I'd like to think there's more to me than what meets the eye, but I've shut myself down for so long I don't know anymore. Until I see him, and then everything changes. Love at first sight? Don't believe there's enough of a connection for that to be verifiable. Lust at first sight? Don't think that works for someone who has never really felt lust. So then, maybe soulmate recognition? I don't know how else to explain how I become instantly drawn to a stranger, but here I am. And when his friends put three dates with him up for auction, there's no way I'm about to lose the chance to get to know him. Join Tristan and Qi on a journey of learning there are a million ways to be on the asexual spectrum but only one way to be uniquely themselves in this sweet and swoony low-angst romance with an aceflux MC who has a demiromantic awakening and the other MC who has a pan-greyrose awakening. Expect cute dates, honest confessions, lots of blushes, tons of support and lots of love. There's a little spice, but there's a higher emphasis on intimacy.

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Summary: Four short stories from the world of the Undead Canadian series, including two previously unpublished works!

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Summary: Christmas used to be a time of joy for me, but since my mother's death three years ago the holiday has lost all meaning, becoming nothing but a harsh reminder of what I've lost. I've become bitter and skeptical of everyone around me, and the cold aloofness has kept me from being hurt that deeply again. But this year the thought of yet another blue Christmas alone sends me on a path that will change my life forever. Trigger Warning: Attempted suicide.

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Summary: Between hatred and desire. Nico was brought up to hate Daniel. The feud between their families is centuries old. But now they are both part of the Terengian national ice hockey team. Working together is proving difficult. A medal at the Winter Olympics in Beijing seems increasingly out of reach. Frustration threatens to tear the team apart. Still Nico and Daniel grow closer every day. But Nico is keeping a secret. A secret that threatens his very existence. But with every second they spend together, Daniel comes closer to uncover it.

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Summary: What happens when you don’t know you’re missing something until he shows up on your farm?  Cole Contrary to what my brother thinks, I like my life the way it is. I enjoy my job, my animals, and having my family close. I’ve never felt the need to find someone before, so why he thinks I’m missing out and need love now, I don’t know. But, it’s when he recruits Johan to help at my family’s farm that I start to wonder if maybe my brother was right after all. As I learn more about Johan and we discover things we have in common, he quickly becomes the first person to ever make me want more. Johan When I escaped to England, hoping to forget about my cheating ex, I gave myself one rule: no dating. With my time in the charming town of Larchdown Valley limited, starting something with someone would be silly. I manage to stick to my self-imposed exile… right up until I lay eyes on Cole. All is not lost, however, as the gorgeous, smart-as-hell vet doesn’t seem to have any interest in me—or anyone else, either. I realise my mistake when we work together to nurse a dog back to health—I’ve fallen for him. But, with my return to Sweden imminent, it’s too late… isn’t it? Bridging the Gap is a sweet but steamy MM Romance featuring a swoony viking nursing a broken heart and a super smart vet who doesn't need anyone, until he finds can't ignore Johan. It is the second book in the Larchdown Valley Series set in a British village all with no 3rd act breakup and a guaranteed HEA. It can be enjoyed as a standalone

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Summary: BROUGHT BY THE STORM With a rare New England hurricane approaching, young Eric Turner offers his home as a place of refuge to stranded Carrington Howard, a mysterious and handsome foreigner. As they ride out the storm, and uncomfortable truce turns into friendship - and then something more. But Carrington's newfound attraction to another man isn't the only secret he's keeping. Soon, all he's been hiding will threaten their blossoming relationship as well as their lives.

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Summary: Cameron Hayes believed himself to be a dedicated friend and a good son but destined to be alone. Because in his twenty-one years, he’d never fallen for anyone. Dating never appealed to him when he would rather spend a night at home. Despite his friend’s best intentions for Cameron to find a hookup for the night, he stayed at the bar as he nursed a beer. And that’s when Cameron spotted him and everything he knew evaporated with one look. Rylan Ellis wanted one night out without complications. To forget about his overwhelming responsibilities and stress at home. He loved to lose himself in the music and ignore everyone around him. But when he happened a glance at the bar and spotted the tall, broad, and sexy-as-sin man, he felt drawn to him. Soon, Cameron and Rylan learn about each other and establish their lives together. They also have to deal with a group of well-meaning friends, loving parents, and unexpected friendships. But most of all, a dangerous threat that could tear their lives apart. Will a chance meeting turn into something more? This novel contains heavy attraction at first sight and first-time gay sex between two men. There is no cheating or cliffhangers and ends with a happily ever after. *Contains a brief mention of a prior sexual assault and violence in later scenes.

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Summary: College is supposed to be the best time of your life. . . What happens when it isn’t-- Andrew was living the dream until he moved to college with his girlfriend. “Know what you are getting into because love changes when the situation changes,” his grampa told him. Everything in life seemed to be going wrong, but one day, after an incident in the quad, something went right—Connor. Moving in with Conner, Andrew found himself in a foreign situation. There was something about his new roommate. . . was this a boy crush? Did Connor like him back? Thoughts become actions, and actions become emotions until life throws another curveball.

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Summary: College is a time of acceptance—but what happens when you’re tired of explaining who you are? Kiel, a young trans man, moved back to the Midwest to attend college with his closest friend, Shelly. Over the last few years, he’s lived his adventure, but now his heart yearns for something normal. Raziel, a straight college student, works at the college rec where Kiel exercises. During a night out, Raziel finds an unexpected attraction for Kiel. Confused by these unforeseen feelings, Raziel needs time to identify and understand his new desires. Both Kiel and Raziel suffer from navigating the world of acceptance and discovery. The yearning desire for normalcy without advertisement or hidden agendas, and the fear of exposing one’s heart only to find rejection. Someone must take the first step, but who will it be? And what will it teach them both about themselves, each other, and about love?

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Summary: In 1888 Austin, Texas, a shy medium with clubfoot is visited by the horrific ghosts of murdered children and enlists the help of a rugged Texas Ranger to pursue their killer. As the two men hunt the murderer, they find themselves not only in the grip of a taboo love that could—at best—send them to prison, but also in danger of becoming the killer’s next prey. In the twenty three years of his life, Thomas Carillon has known nothing but unrequited love. People don’t notice him; they only notice his clubfoot. He has given himself up to a solitary existence with only the companionship of his cat and the ghosts who visit him. When a rare child ghost, her massive injuries evident, asks Thomas for help, the only law man that will listen is a hard-bitten Texas Ranger who reawaken’s Thomas’s secret desires. The two grow closer as they chase the killer, but can they hold onto their fragile, budding love in such hard times? Hadrian Burton thinks Thomas looks like an angel, except for whatever horror he’s hiding in that strange boot. Temporarily leaving life on the range and his complicated past to track down a killer with Thomas, Hadrian finds himself doing something he vowed never to do again—falling in love. Their “congress,” as Thomas calls it, is more intense than he has ever experienced. After a lifetime of virginity, the clubfooted man is going wild, and he doesn’t balk at Hadrian’s unconventional appetites. But they’re too different; Hadrian fears he will only hurt Thomas in the end. And yet, he has never fallen so hard for another man. How can he keep both his and Thomas’s hearts from being broken? And how can he bring the elusive Child Slayer to justice with only the help of a medium and ghosts? This erotic gay romance contains violence, period homophobia, period racism, period ableism, and graphic sex scenes.